Motivation

I have a confession.

When "The Secret" was released (the national phenomenon declaring that one can "think" themselves to a better life), I immediately took to it. Oprah did not have to tell me twice that what goes on in the mind manifests itself into reality. I want to be a big deal in my career - I have big dreams - so this was something I took to.

However, how I came to receive "The Secret" is a bit twilight zone. I actually received the DVD months before it's national coverage. In September of 2006, I was waiting tables in Salt Lake City to supplement the income I was getting from studying underneath a modern dance company based out there. (This income being zilch). I spent one particular week waiting on a gentleman in SLC for business. During this week, I waited on him about four or five times. So we got to talking about life, what he did for a living, his family, his education, and why I was in SLC so far from Texas and future plans to take over the dance world, and the day before he left, (in addition to giving me a great tip), he left me a blank purple DVD. He said, "I can tell you're going to take to this - this will help you get anything you could ever want." I'm a bit of a cynic, so while I thanked him for my gift, I ended up throwing it on my desk, never looked at it again.

Fast forward. It is now half a year later, the first week in March 2007, and I'm making plans to audition for "The Show". One afternoon, I'm at the house killing time, and I see Oprah's episode on "The Secret". Halfway through the show, my DVD player arrives from Texas. (Up until this point, it had been in storage at my folk's place). I go upstairs to hook up my DVD player to watch TROY and instead I end up stumbling upon the blank DVD that the gentleman gave me back in October. I watch it - it turns out to be "The Secret. At this time, I'm in the middle of dreaming really big things for myself. We are now in the cusp of 2008 - and it's been quite the year. If I never voice it publicly again: I am very grateful to Rhonda Byrne for putting together "The Secret" and to Oprah for supporting it.

You're catching me on a high. I just discovered that auditions for "The Show" have been published and that there will be auditions in Mid-January in Dallas. Finally, after months of drudgery and running on the corporate hamster wheel - I can put my efforts into something that doesn't encourage chain smoking to make me feel better. Finally, a justifiable reason to go to the gym and puke during my work out. I'm all about lighting a fire under my own ass, and I am super stoked about this audition - and if I blow it, who the f@!# cares - I'll just go the LA audition in March. And if that doesn't work I'll just go to the SLC audition in April. Whether I'm on "The Show" or not, those people are going to know who I am and what I'm about - let the hostile take over of the dance world begin!!